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Fic: Numb3rs: The Haves and the Have-Nots (Billy Cooper)

Title: The Haves and the Have-Nots
Fandom: Numb3rs
Characters: Billy Cooper
Rating: G
Word Count: 300
Challenge: #168 New York for Numb3rs100

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Two Big Things

Got the Crest Whitestrips in, and I'm ready to rock.

1. I'm back in my treatment group. That was pretty emotional.

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Jesus, can You show me just how far the East is from the West?

I got kicked out of my fucking treatment group tonight.

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Fan Fic: Numb3rs: "An Afternoon's Epilogue (Prelude to Our Storm)" (Don, Billy)

Title: An Afternoon's Epilogue (Prelude to Our Storm)
Fandom: Numb3rs
Characters: Don Eppes, Billy Cooper
Rating: PG
Word Count: 300

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Fighting Cross-Addiction

Remember that you are not cured.

That's what the bulleted point read on the yellow outline for how to prepare my testimony (which I delivered on June 30 at Peace Church in Eagan). I am not immune to cravings; they are to be expected. What I did not expect was the voracity of my addiction. It is not limited to chemical dependency. It is a compulsion that exists within me, a nagging urge to soothe myself in unhealthy ways.

When an addiction manifests itself in a new form, that's called cross-addiction. And that's what I've been struggling with.

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Flyleaf - Fully Alive

The female-fronted, "positive rock" band Flyleaf will be featured at this year's Sonshine Fest (that I've mentioned will also feature Skillet), so I'm looking forward to seeing them. I first heard Flyleaf's "Fully Alive" not on Christian radio but at the strip club. This song became my staple for my stage performances. No, I don't have a Pavlovian response to start taking off my clothes and grinding when this song comes on. Though this song does evoke negative memories for me (alcohol and cocaine abuse, prostitution, having sex with a married man), I still love it because it remains a song with a positive message.

If you like Flyleaf's song, definitely check out their others. I especially like "Sorrow."

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Fan Fic: Numb3rs: "Something That Goes Like This" (Megan)

Title: Something That Goes Like This
Fandom: Numb3rs
Characters: Megan
Rating: PG
Word Count: 300

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UnderOath - Writing on the Walls

If you're like me and fell in love with UnderOath's album They're Only Chasing Safety, you've come to expect a great compilation of screaming choruses and beautiful melodies. Their follow-up album Define the Great Line was recommended to me, and I was excited to go get it. Unfortunately, I was disappointed when I listened to it. The musicianship is strong, and the boys have their talent together, but the melodic quality I had come to expect from Safety is missing. There was something bordering on radio-friendly that existed in the songs on their previous album.

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Sanity: What would you do for it?

When I got involved in recovery, I thought the goal was sobriety. I figured that as long as I wasn't drinking or using, I was doing all that was expected of me.

As it turns out, that's not the case.

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You've been given $20 million to use on a TV show. What do you do?

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